Posts Tagged ‘soul’

In my last posting I left you all hanging as to what is going on and where I may end up. So much may change between now and then so to save confusion if I don’t want to elaborate too much now.

I posted this in a hurry last night and of course it wasn’t finished or corrected….hence the update.


Learning and Experiencing an Ancient and Natural Art Form – Wool Felting

For the past four days I have been helping Jessica make sacred felt yoga mats for a wonderful order she received – 23 pieces in all.  Several months ago I helped her for a day and enjoyed the felting experience. When her invitation came for assistance it all seemed to be in alignment with the movement showing up so I told her I would be there!. It also was evident my return to the Mt Shasta area was necessary to align with some karmic relationship journeys I have had playing out since arriving in this very powerful vortex a year ago.

I had planned to walk you through this ancient art form but as I write this at the end of Day 4 both Jessica and I are pretty much “fried” after completing half the order which I have discovered is no small accomplishment. I will give you a very brief rundown now and in a few days when the rest of the order is complete and sent I will share the rest and photo if the process, it is fascinating and I think many will be interested.

Wool Felting is all done all by hands and feet, lots of “foot stomping” of wet wool to create felt…it is  physical, timing consuming, beautiful, emotionally revealing for both the felter and the wool itself.  As the felt mats start to take shape each has its own “personality and message”, it is amazing. Wool Felting dates back as far as Sumeria around 2nd century BC and had been done for thousands of years throughout the Middle East and Asia and by many indigenous peoples.  I hope to have some photos of the process shortly.  Wool felts are used for mats, mattresses, coverings of many uses including yurts. Warm in winter, cool in summer, offer neutralizing of electromagnetic waves fields when sat upon, especially wonderful for babies and those who are confined to bed. Visit Jessica’s website  http://www.sacredfeltcollection.com

Showing the Way!

Because I have been so busy I felt guided to share a story with you on a topic of great interest…Near Death Experiences. Then today while taking a break I met up with Ashalyn and fellow Shaman, Juvy. During our time together I heard his latest poem of his recent dying and coming back to life experience. It is a beautiful poem and I was moved to tears. My surprise was the complete synchronicity of our meeting, the subject matter and the fact I used a special photo taken last winter in the story below ( Juvy’s staff, cape and hat standing in the snow) Because of this I will now include another photo of Juvy himself… he is such a beautiful, powerful and pure man on his Shamanic path. I am grateful for the work we have done together.

After reading the following story, has anyone had a similar experience…let us know!  I also hope to have more new photos shortly.

Journey to the Light and Back

It was December 27, 2007 and I had been restless for several weeks with indecisive thoughts of what to do next and where to go. Although I had been staying in Asheville I had been led to Waynesville, NC by a friend, and over those past weeks it had shown up several times but I was resisting. Going back to live in a small town was bringing back many challenging memories of my life “serving churches in the South and Mid-West” along side Tim, my now ex-husband and friend.
Having planned to run some errands and make a couple of work inquiries yet nothing was panning out, no one was available, even though they were scheduled in their offices. What to do next!

“Drive to Waynesville” was an intuitive message coming forth.


“Just go!”

“OK!” So I drove the 45 minutes west along Hwy 40 on a pretty yet cold morning.

In Waynesville I parked by the Court House in a 1-hour spot and walked around historic downtown for a while, getting another feel for the town. “Should I move here!” was the question running through my mind.

After a stop for coffee I made my way to the Crystal Dragonfly, a small lovely book and gift store on Main Street, hoping to speak to Ursula, the owner. Susan was there instead. Susan is a gentle, very spiritual and powerful English woman whom I had met briefly only once before. Susan also did shamanic healing work.

From the beginning of our conversation we felt a strong connection and understanding with each other.  We talked of our journeys, our work and our great desires to find “our home”, both realizing that this place is but a stopping point for an undetermined period of time.

Our conversation was stopped with the arrival of a young customer, her friend and her father. They looked around and chatted until the father produced a stone from his pocket and presented it to Susan.

“I would like to show you this stone and what it does” he announced. He instructed Susan to place her ear right on the glass counter and listen. He then placed the stone on the glass, touched it lightly and waited. On its own, the stone began to move back and forth slowly at first and then it amazingly moved faster and faster until a high pitched, fast vibration sound could be easily heard and then it stopped.

Susan was amazed by what she felt and heard with her ear on the glass counter. I watched from about 6 feet away. I could hear and feel the strong energy emanating from the stone even at that distance. It was powerful and incredible to watch!

He shared the story of how it came to him and said he didn’t know what type of stone it was and asked if either of us perhaps knew! We didn’t yet we both agreed it was very unusual, ancient and powerful. We both felt it was a prophesy stone of sorts.

Casually the man passed me the stone. Wow! It was strong and I took in its energy yet not really able to explain what I was receiving. (Several days later Susan shared what she observed at that moment. “As you held the stone you became lighter, less visible, as though someone was erasing a picture. In essence, you were disappearing”.

I put the stone down on the counter and the conversation continued. Shortly the man’s wife arrived and she entered the conversation. I was drawn to the stone again, picked it up, this time for just for a few moments.

My thoughts moved to leaving so I could continue my day yet as I did so, there was a strong pull for me to stay, when unexpectedly another friend arrived. What a surprised! We talked. Susan and the family continued their conversations in the store.  My friend left and I returned to the conversation, standing just to the left of the man.

This time the man was talking more about his own journey and wanting to understand more about spiritual teachings. Susan and I had both told him we believed the stone was very much a part of his learning something new although we had no idea what that would be. My curiosity was peaked as to his profession. He was very much an analytical thinker and seemed to be struggling with the concept of trusting unknown realities.

“May I ask what you do?”

“I am a scientist”  he shared.

“What discipline?” I asked

“Medicine!” was his response, to which Susan and I laughed and now realized this man was being asked to see and learn about energy and vibration healing in ways beyond the traditional allopathic medicine he was practicing. He was in fact a cardiac specialist. As if unaware he turned and gave me the stone once again. I took it for just a moment and returned it to the counter and stepped into the hallway.

Feeling thirsty and a little hungry I was thinking about lunch when a wave of unsteadiness came over me. Wow! Strange! It started getting stronger and I needed to sit down. This feeling was different to when my blood sugar would drop, usually due to waiting too long to eat. This was something else! I made it to the table in the hall, sat down and then felt myself melting into the seat. My head was on the table, and then I was on the floor.

I hear a voice “Are you alright?”  All I was seeing was a huge white light filling the entire hall area. Everything was white and getting more and more luminous. I was melting further and further. A voice says “can I listen to your heart, take your pulse!”  It was the doctor/scientist.

Then from the lofty ethers I hear “she hardly has any pulse, I can hardly hear her heart, and we need EMS!” It was the doctor again!

“I know what is happening, I’m not in my body, I’m alright” replied the voice coming from somewhere in, around or above me. I sensed panic all around me but I was calm.

I kept hearing the doctor saying EMS, no pulse, bad heart, urgent!

From my observation place above I say again, “No I am alright. I’m not in my body.” Of course no one else could hear what I was trying to tell them. The incredible white light was everywhere, so bright and then a vibrating charge that feels like a charge of thousands of volts of electricity coming though my body out my hands. My hands feel on fire, shaking uncontrollably with blue sparks of light shooting out from my palms and fingers. I then began gulping for air, my throat was getting tight, I could not swallow. I remember hearing the voice saying “I can’t breathe, I can’t breathe.”

My voice from above asks to hold the doctor’s hands and without realizing it he takes my hands, the change of electricity when through from my hands into his and throughout his body. I was also asking for Susan. “Get Susan, get Susan!” I could hear myself saying, no one else heard me yet Susan now arrived beside me. My voice asks her, “Please help me ground!”

The doctor is still on about EMT who hadn’t yet arrived! He appeared scared! Through the mist of luminous light I could see other people in the hallway standing in a distance.

Susan was shocked at what she saw, what I looked like. She knew this was serious and  she tapped into the voice coming from above and outside of me. My physical body was there but “no one was home” so to speak. (Susan later confirmed my palms were bright red/orange with spark of light coming from my palms and fingers)

I watched her from above as she did her energy work, she was nervous for she knew I wasn’t there. My physical body was still holding the doctor’s hands and vibrating. The heat was amazing and the luminous light was still glowing powerfully.

(Susan later revealed what she had “seen and felt”. “You had moved beyond this plane and there were two situations running. The voice from beyond the body was saying ground me yet the soul moved out and was/had decided to leave for it/you were tired. We were both experiencing this place in the Void although I cannot explain what happened. Soul decided to return and you moved back into grounding. The doctor was anxious saying “she won’t make it another twenty-four hours, she has to go to the emergency room!”)

Minutes ticked away, I am still insisting from above, “I am alright and I know what is happening, I am not in my body that is why you can’t feel my heart or pulse.” Slowly I start coming back, the light fades, the vibrating subsides and I see people around me, looks of shock and fear are on their faces. They have witnessed something unexplainable.

Reluctantly the doctor had to leave (for his own professional reasons) as I was coming back, After a sip of water and being moved to a comfortable chair I was returning to normal.  I finally agreed to go to the emergency room, someone would have to drive me there, but no one wanted that responsibility. OK! I still resisted until finally giving in. I knew I was OK but perhaps more in curiosity as to whether tests would reveal anything odd. EMS was called and would you believe five paramedics arrived!

“What happened? How do you feel? Any pain?” were the questions asked by the young paramedic tending to me.

“I had a powerful spiritual experience!” was my reply

“Tell me about it then!”

So I told him that a doctor had brought in a stone into the store, it was very powerful and I held it for a while! Sounds crazy but you had to see and feel the stone to understand!

“A doctor!” he exclaimed

“Yes, he was hoping to find out more about the stone!”

The paramedic took my response, filed it away I guess and went about his business

A few hours later after blood work, EKG, blood pressure checks and a several short naps, I was cleared to leave. All was normal at least in that department. Yet from the metaphysical perspective, I had been given a very powerful and profound experience which I knew would truly reveal secrets in the days, weeks, months and years to come.

For all intents and purposes, it felt like a high vibration living ascension experience.

A month later I started teaching classes on Play Meditations with an octave of the Singing Crystal Bowls. During these sessions I would also do healing work with those present. I noticed a marked increase in my healing power and knowledge being transmitted during those times. This also proved true in the Reiki /High Vibration Energy classes and attunements I conducted. Everyone was tweaked up several more notches then expected, as though being primed for the times ahead. In the years since then there have been many quite to very subtle awareness, knowledge and messages from this experience and I continue to pay attention.

As for the doctor, Susan and I agreed that this experience would probably be a life changing one for him (we found out months later that it was.) With all his years of medical experience, what he knew was of no use at that moment in time for all was happening and being directed by Soul and the Higher Realms, it was a Shamanic teaching experience.

This experience of course made me think about how many people actually have a “shamanic death/rebirth” on the operating table and it is treated with standard procedures. Is this an area that should be addressed in medical training and nursing practices?  There is so much more to understand!

We are being opened to Fifth Dimension Mysticism in remarkable ways now….just pay attention before setting your intention!


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Full Moon in Libra in the Sign of Aries.  It’s like being in the spin cycle of life’s machine and not sure which speed is coming next. Lots of unravelling, revealing which creates mystical happenings and awareness, a little scary, lots of  revelations and oh so adventureous possibilities to explore.

Hold on to your hats….. this is only the begining for we have arrived in a new time and space with no return to the past acceptable.


The World Book Dictionary’s meaning of metamorphosis is “change of form, structure, substance; any complete change in appearance, character, circumstances.” This is what spring is about, bringing new hidden life to the surface to present a complete visual transformation in appearance, character and form.

This is what is happening to all of us internally and externally, with incredible speed, power and significance.  And I can definitely say my life shifts have been ramped up big time! I have been trying to write a new post for the past four to five days and just the action of opening up the blog site sometimes proved impossible.

What changed today to at least get it started? Birthdays begin a new revolution of birth and rebirth and this has just occurred for me as well as, last Wednesday was the last morning of getting up at 4am to participate in the  latest 11 day sadhana (morning call to meditation and chant) at a center in Mt Shasta.  The particular session mantra was focused on releasing blocks. Blocks from what appeared to be from eons of time past to the stuff brought forth that very night. There was nothing subtle about it either, no mistaking what was being addressed and how proactive actions really were crucial and not to be delayed. 

Another thing that has changed is how I am to redefine myself, my life purpose, work and most of all my DESIRES. Become more specific and refine the central theme. For anyone reading my bios, website or most especially knowing me, realize I have done, been, seen and created from very diverse directions and I’m often asked “what do you really do and how do you use it!” Confusing to say the least, to all except me! Everything I have ever done, learned, etc., I now know how to put it all into play when working with clients, writing, creating presentations and shows or finding disruptive forces in grids. BUT NOW IT NEEDS TO BE REFINED TO A CENTRAL CORE OF PURE INTEREST and this is ultimately UNDERSTANDING SOUL EVOLUTION STORIES and WHO WE ARE TODAY!  How this is done is the Intuitive Journey of Discovery!

Many of you reading this piece will agree and say “that’s happening to me and I didn’t have to get up at 4am and chant!”  For me, the discipline, focus, attention, intent and conscious awareness provided very clear signposts and thread patterns to follow, rather than being blind and unconscious to the reasons, impact and appropriate responses required to move or dissolve the blocks.  Some friends were put in their sick beds to have time to cleanse, reflect and revive to their new selves; or a relationship came to place of transition for reasons viewed quite differently by each person involved; huge and fast rearrangements of living circumstances, work, power and information are all part of the individual and universal metamorphosis taking place.

You cannot fight it……it is a natural flow of life force……..

Embrace it……..and The Birth it is facilitating in your life!


Creating Soul Stories     Why Are They Important?

In the last post there was as example of how a formless light vibration snowball may create a Soul for incarnation by traveling through a great Life Memory Library. This is a powerful tool I use for helping people understand why and how  they experience life as they do.

The next story is of birth and family ties, their impact and how they really extend back in time and beyond this space. Understanding such genetic ties, their cellular and psychic memory and current connection to life and health issues are significant within my own children and family even as I write this. The deep, old and wounded past is pleading for acknowledgement, release and healing.

                     Sample Chart Flow

The Dynamic Web of Family Ties

 Another experience that presented itself at Spa Atlantis was with a young mother-to-be and her family. On the day I met her, she told me her due date was NOW, TODAY! I will call this young woman, Susan.


I had just finished working with another client and came out to the reception area. Standing there, beside Susan was her aunt, a friend, a massage therapist and the receptionist for the spa. I was introduced to Susan and of course my question to her was “when are you due?”

She replied “now but the baby has not dropped into place for some reason and the doctor’s are concerned. I had a massage with the hope of moving the baby into place.”


Observing a great pressure on her spine because of the baby’s weight and position I asked if I could do a little energy work to perhaps shift it so she would not be so uncomfortable.  Susan gladly agreed.


Standing right there in the reception area, with all everyone observing, I “did my energy magic” as I call it. Within a couple of minutes she experienced a shift, her baby demagnetized from the spine allowing for Susan to loosen and straighten herself, her skin, hair and eyes visibly lightened and the baby slowly lowered into place.


Everyone was amazed! They watched my every move, the breathing technique I showed Susan, the fact that I really didn’t even touch her and also all this was done within five or six minutes. I smiled and then bid farewell, leaving Susan now looking like a radiant and comfortable mother-to-be.


The next day I had planned to visit a friend at his office in Hollywood, FL. David was a Doctor of Oriental Medicine and we were going to share techniques and information on each other’s work.  He had given me directions and said that I should to park in the Burger King Lot across the street.


At the duly appointed time I arrived and parked my car. First off I made a stop in the Burger King to wash my hands and get the feel that it was alright to leave my car for a couple of hours.


I was just about to leave the store when a voice behind me said “hello, what are you doing here?” It was Susan’s aunt from the previous day. To say the least I was surprised.


“I’m visiting a friend across the street!”

“Oh he is at the birthing center!  ” she asked and then proceeds to introduce Susan’s mother and other family members.


“I had no idea David’s office was connected to the birthing center!” I replied.


We crossed the street together and entered the building. David was waiting for me. Susan’s aunt wanted me to meet the grandparents and children before I met with David.


This is when I “tuned into” some rather disturbing emotions and threads that were playing out in the family. The Grandmothers were remembering their own child birth experiences, there was jealousy coming from a sister and Susan’s supposed “best friend.


I went to see David and spent about two hours together in his office.  Eventually, the need for food took over and we decided to go and find something to eat.


The scene in the rest of the building had changed. There was a much stronger stress level evident. Walking passed a room with the door open I realized that it was a birthing room and in use. A large woman in a wheelchair was in the room and as I walked past felt a very uncomfortable chill.


I asked David who she was. “She is the midwife.”

To say the least I was shocked. Shocked at the chilling energy messages I was picking up from the room and woman.


Upon leaving the building we were greeted with the sight of Susan being walked in the parking lot, her husband on one side and her best friend on the other. Susan was not the radiant person I left the day before. She was in pain, tired, drained and actually looking wretched. My heart went out to her.


David and I moved to our cars and out of ear shot of everyone. I shared my observations and feelings with him and although he had not understood the scenarios, as soon as I pointed them out he agreed completely.


  These were my observations.                                                   

  1. The grandparents of the two families were not comfortable or did not particularly really like each other.                                                                                                                                                            Sample Family Issues Chart
  2. The midwife present was not only unhealthy physically; she also had a strong jealous energy around her and “wanted” the mothers to experience difficult births, as her own life was difficult. Susan’s sister also exhibited jealousy.
  3. Outside, Susan’s best friend had a strong interest in her husband and perhaps in the past they had had a relationship. Once again jealousy was apparent.
  4. All these webs of relationship energies were being picked up by the baby, and baby was saying “I don’t want to come into this mess there is too much pain and deceit around!” Thus labored had virtually stopped.


For those readers who are questioning the above observations, it was the energy, auric fields and body language of everyone involved I was reading and sensing. This has taken me many years of observation to understand and now hopefully I can assist or facilitate to dissolve and complete particular energy patterns.


As David and I continued to stand by our cars I quietly said a blessing and connected into Divine Source and held the space while these dark threads moved to become light.  In situations like these, I know I have been guided or directed to “turn up, be present and hold light” by a higher divine power which could also include the “spirit/s” of family members wishing to help resolve situations that seem to repeat themselves over and over again. These powerful times are showing us many very different ways of handling and looking at life.


One of the most crucial factors in transmuting dark or negative energies, behaviors, spirits and such is to acknowledge and validate that they are real and have had a purpose up until that moment. Validation is the key to dissolving the power or fear, and in validating the power or fear, there is then a choice to make of what to do next, thus moving beyond its perceived original purpose.

Like a child demanding attention. Until the child is acknowledged and asked what they want, their demands will continue to get louder and louder.

Several days later I spoke to David for an update on when Susan went into labor and had her baby. He said “the situation started to change about an hour after I left and she had her baby later than night. He said the stress amongst everyone definitely changed and ‘thank you for what you did!”

As with the many varied experiences I have had over the years, each one teaches me something special and important not only about others but also myself and then becomes another block in the new life puzzle I am gradually learning more about.  



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Without the dark one cannot see the power of the Light

Without violence one cannot know Peace is the answer

Without hate one cannot know Compassion

Without adversity one cannot learn Respect

Without power one cannot understand Surrender

Without greed one cannot learn generosity

Without possessions one learns freedom

Without Light there is no Love




The Birth of Spring

In a few days we move from the confines of winter’s hibernation into the spring’s potential birth. At least this is so in the northern hemisphere with the mirror reflection shining up from the southern hemisphere which prepares for fall harvest and later hibernation.

Being born in Australia, the southern hemisphere, my birthday is the week after this seasonal turn into autumn (fall), yet living for many years in America where this turn of seasons is the advent of new birth, I have often wondered how it has influenced my perceptions of life.  In order to find an answer I usually search deep underneath to find the light above!

Balance is so important, yet this can only really be found from knowing the extremes and then moving into center. As the words above reflect without one the other cannot be experienced, seen, honored or corrected.

To find the truth of what is on the surface it is necessary to delve into the depths and behind the scenes, into the unknown. Yet I am not telling you anything that has not been said before.

Reflect upon the words above. The actions and patterns within your life and world around you only need to shift the slightest fraction in order to manifest anew. The tiniest speck of light in darkness reveals much once eyes adjust to the light quotient. The darkness then becomes non-existent.

And the smallest adjustment in violence, hate, adversity, power, and greed is equally felt to change a paradigm.

Fear not the tiny speck for it is the collection of specks that ignite the universe. Birth in pure form! 

So much of my work with clients, writings and my own personal search of purpose lead back to the beginning, a place that is infinitely untouchable in this reality yet profoundly touchable deep within my core. All the edicts on DNA, RNA, protons, neutrons, and atomic particles are still within the physical domain. We must seek far beyond, is what I have been shown. Thus the question comes up: what comes first the Chicken or the Egg? To have a chicken it has to start with an egg. Then where did the egg originate from before it energized into the possibility of the physical!

Here I have included a short piece given to me on possibilities. This will be a continuing series of stories, ideas, perspectives and possibilities shown over the past several years. Each one will offer a glimpse into worlds not seen yet are so very real. It is not for me to say they are correct or otherwise. They offer you, the reader, an opportunity to form your own opinion and later knowing to aid your journey.  View this first one as a possible opening scene in a play.  


Where Does The Knowing and Life Come From?

Preparing for the next incarnation!


The following images are created to provoke memory and ideas of the possible evolution of soul memory processes from our human perspective. This of course is the only perspective we can come from, at least until we are able to tap into the true higher divine realms of spiritual knowledge behind the ever thinning veils.

IMAGINE you have just walked into a huge library, perhaps reminiscent of the Library of Alexandria and your goal is to create a life experience for the next incarnation. Where to start? Is there a format? Do you want to live again?

You begin as formless swirling light vibrations that flow and dart unseen around the library. So many choices! (I feel this image is reminiscent of a snowball of millions of light vibration snowflakes, each snowflake holding its own memory of experience from some time so very long ago, while other combinations are of specific times in history moving towards this latest life experience. Different parents, people, thoughts, scenarios, emotions, challenges, genders, good and bad, peaceful and violent, rich and poor, and the list goes on and on, all culminating in the possible creation frequency for the upcoming incarnation. (This description also relates back to the beginning of Soul’s Evolution)

As the formless light vibration snowball moves around  the library, books randomly start falling off the shelves landing on the floor and opened to pages which reveal different colored and highlighted chapters, sentences and words, At first glance there seems to be no purpose or logic behind this experience, yet in time a grander picture begins to be revealed.

Swirling light vibration scenes emanate from the highlights. They begin in ancient times, before written memory where earthly words to describe them are present. What seem to be galaxies and stars spark knowledge while descending through time/space to an earthly realm.

Advanced beings of light and crystal, and the beauty of nature unsurpassed are revealed. The light vibration snowball fills and grows with beauty, knowing, purpose and love extraordinaire.  The “mythical” continents of Lyra, Lemuria, Mu and Atlantis, and perhaps places we have not known before, along with ancient deserts, savannahs, rainforests, mountains, seas locales fill the cells of knowing to stories. The formless light vibration snowball shifts along another wall of books and a dark cloud engulfs time. Emotions of pain, despair, anger swirl up from the pages. Faces distorted, male, female, young, old, well, sick, rich, poor play out within time/space, leaving their imprint within the snowball memory of loss, fear, abandonment and revenge. The imprint of varying places and timeframes are sealed in what will become the Soul Snowball.

The swirling light vibration continues around the library gathering more and more diverse scenarios of past earthly incarnations. Such changing roles as mother, father, children, holy and evil, protector, hangman, royalty, peasant, farmer, technician, artist, thinker, gypsy, and hermit, become a representation of life’s full gamut.   Places we know today as Greece, Mayaland, China, Middle East, Scotland, France, South Dakota, England, Australia to name but a few possibilities.

Each scenario could be as short as a moment, while others as long as an earthly lifetime, quietly build life story lines onto previous incarnations. They show completed stories, incomplete stories, personalities both complete and in turmoil. Some are of a lonesome journey, while others include many people and players. Family, friends, strangers, loving and hateful, powerful and weak, yet words of current languages are so far from being adequate or accurate to express all the wonders unfolding.

Upon completion of this light vibration snowball a merging of Divine Grace is infused to be held in suspension until called upon to incarnate in the next present time.

As you let the pictures and memories within you resonate to the surface similarities to your own life may be evident. Make notes; see patterns and stories from within to see what you are being shown about Life.

In the days to come the view will expand further. Keep revisiting and rediscovering!

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