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magnificence 2We all have those little or not so little traits that we would rather hide from others and/or avoid completely. That is, of course, until they come up and face you square in the eyes and have to be dealt with!

Procrastination and avoidance are what I have to admit to in this instance! Yet out of it has come some surprising revelations!

At the beginning of this year I decided it was time to change the name on my passport to match the name on my license, from one married name to other.

Before I go any further a side note: The male populations of most countries have no idea how lucky they are with the fact they don’t have to change their identity whenever they marry. Women on the other hand, from the dictates of many years past, are required to change their name to that of the husband, a beginning that was close to indicating ownership of someone or something. Thankfully now in many countries women have the choice to change their name or not.

Prior to 2001 having two names, traveling with all the right documents showing you are one and the same person was validated by the system when entering one or both names. You, your information and history were on the computer screen to be easily seen.

About five years ago the smoothness went to sticky to now it is stuck in mountains of super glued red tape, and even insiders have agreed with image!  This is where procrastination finally caught up with me!

In January with all the correct original documents backing up my life with these two names I had an interview in Phoenix, AZ. They took copies in the interview and fingerprints were done. Then the waiting game began. About 8 to 9 months till completion I was told.

Two weeks ago I receive a letter requesting all documentation to prove my names and reason for the change. Is it possible that the first set of documents I presented to the authorities are still sitting in a file box in Phoenix!

Next the letter stated the two sets of fingerprints taken that day were unacceptable and I now have to provide proof of where I have lived for the past 10 years.

Wow……how on earth am I going to achieve this! This took more than a couple of days to sink in and find the solution.

Of course for a great deal of people this would not be a problem. They have either lived in the same home or town for many, many years. For others a couple of moves are easy to track and paperwork abounds. From here the groups with increasing numbers of moves decrease in number.

In the past 13 years I have been a very fluid and free spirit. (Although that was not the case during my 25 years of marriages.) Life has been and still is a Spiritual Journey of Discovering Who I am, Why I am Here and What I Am to Give Back and be of Service to Life.

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1998 Nissan Sentra with 300,000 miles My Little Girl!

The search for answers begins with pencil and paper……I can name the locations, towns, city and states. Specific addresses were a challenge. I could picture the house, apartment or land but could not remember the physical addresses.

I had chosen to stop using credit cards in 2003 as part of the journey to learn and understand how money, abundance and prosperity flows or doesn’t in response to one’s need and wants. It was around that time that I realized how corrupt and unreal the money system really was. Thus for these reasons a credit report was of no use because I had no history to track.

Next the bank I had been using for 15 years. Their computer systems don’t keep track of former addresses. Old ones are deleted when updates are changed (or at least this is what I was told.) Then I tried the same thing with the car insurance company and the deal was the same. I thought about tax records but whatever I have are in a box in someone’s attic a long way from here.

STUCK! The obvious places were dead ends. I had some proof of addresses but holes remained!

On the surface my nomadic life was odd, random and uneasy for some people. For others there was the wish to be and do something similar. To find the answers I needed I had to look deeper.

Underneath I am unchanging and predictable: the same bank and insurance company for 15 years; the same cell phone number for 11 years; the same email address for 11 years; driven the same car for 16 years and she has just turned over 300,000 miles!

And there lay the answer! Since driving her off the lot in Sedalia, MO in 1998 with 500 + miles on the odometer, every time tires were purchased or service was done I would slip the finally paperwork into the glove box. I even have the original sales paperwork.

Sitting in the sun I laid out all the paperwork, put it in date and location order and there was the time line and mapping of life for 16 years. Now not only do I have the address proof needed but also confirmation of the same phone number, same vehicle, running tab of the mileage, directions traveled and locations visited and all the care given to Little Girl along the way.

Next week all this will be put to use to validate the requests of the letter mentioned.

What it has further given me is the time to review of the many places I have been, the wonderful people I have met, experiences share and lessons learned.

Where have you lived in the past 10 years? Is there a time line and map to show in black and white! Who have you met, what have you done, how have you grown…….where are you going from here?

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Article first published as Practicing Thankfulness. on Blogcritics.

This posting is a little different from the usual ones I have been writing. So much we take for granted in the busy everyday flow of life that we miss being in gratitude and appreciation of what is right in front of us or actually what surrounds and moves us daily. I was on the journey back to Mt Shasta after being on the road for three weeks. Driving the back roads and lesser highways going north from San Rafael a feeling of deep gratitude came over me for “my little girl”, my constant highway companion. I just glanced down and my eyes caught sight of her odometer reading as the numbers lined up, it read 234,000 miles and the trip meter I had reset to 000 on filling up in San Rafael read 125 miles at less than the first quarter tank marker. To most of you this may be a lot of nonsense and meaningless numbers. Wrong! In these days of high and illogical gas prices, cars that guzzle gas and sales pitches of “car such and such gets 30+ miles to a gallon…I was thrilled! Based on the trip meter and knowing how she runs, 430 miles from her 11 gallon tank was within reach… I know her so well and she knows me. She is a 1998 Nissan Sentra GXE…a remarkable vehicle. Although now she looks rough around the edges with a dent in her rear, a broken mirror (hopefully soon to be replaced) and a front bumper that is hanging on by a bra…since September 1998 we have been traveling everywhere together…everyone of those 234,000 miles…up and down, back and forth, distances extending from the Florida Keys to California and Oregon Coasts and so much in between. Before beginning our latest trip three weeks earlier a friend gave her a turn up, oil change, changed all the filters, spark plugs and distributor and some TLC. Over the years her brakes, clutch, struts, tires and belts have been replaced and with each new part she breathes a sigh of thanks. Back in 2002 I replaced all the tires before driving from Denver to Boca Raton, Florida. Along the way the clutch started showing signs of problems. I couldn’t get her fixed for reasons of time and $$. I talked to her, asked her to get us there safely and I will take care of her as soon as possible…said a prayer for both of us and kept driving. The following week I was finally able to take her in to Firestone for service….after checking the clutch the mechanic wanted to speak to me. “How long have you been driving like this, with this problem!”  So I told him….”you drove from where, Denver…I don’t know how the clutch stayed together….that’s amazing!” Over the years there have been several instances like that and I am always in awe and gratitude. Not only for her but also to the production lines she passed through from her beginning to when I received her….everyone did a great job of putting all the pieces together with the right working integrity….completely missing the “lemon syndrome.” Granted there are millions of vehicles that fall into this category, yet if you are one who “gets a lemon” my words will only add salt to that wound! Are you in gratitude of your car, computer and all the necessary equipment that makes each day run as it should? “They’re just machines, cars, objects what difference will it make!” Possibly a huge difference! All life works on, by and through energy fields. When flowing freely and smoothly, everything works well yet when blocks, breaks, interruptions, shortages and the like are present, trouble is a brewing! Take a few moments out of your day, be in gratitude of “your little girl or guy”, smile at this simple gesture and watch the life unfold!

“Awakening and Igniting Ecstasy In-Formation…New Twists on Money Power, Sex and Death”

This is the flyer notice for my next Life Theatre Production on Saturday September 25th in Mt Shasta, CA. The premier performance received very positive feedback so of course I hope for the same after this time. Some of the loose script has been tweaked to flow a little differently. I have receive new revelations as to the higher meanings behind some examples…these I will share. In order to share performance exposure I have found one classical guitarist  and am seeking additional musicians for the musical interludes in the program. Peter and Isys and my son Jerame were wonderful last time, yet I like to change each performance in several ways….keeps the intrigue! Up and coming unknowns are welcome to contact me! If you are in the Mt Shasta area on Saturday night, come and join us!

Coming Full Circle

Have you noticed in the past few weeks how many things in life seem to be coming full circle. Returning to people, places, relationships and businesses that perhaps began a time back, as much as several years or more, and now their history, purpose, ideas and health are having to be addressed and reviewed with possible beginnings or endings, and now are seen from wiser and more refined perspectives.

This is so true of my life and many around me. For instance, a business that started about five years ago with the vision of creating a positive community image as a gathering place.  The vision got lost in bad management, loss of purpose and turned into a hang out of drugs, alcohol and lost souls. It has been closed for two years. In the past month it has begun to opened up as a place of healing and hopes to  foster a positive community image and be welcoming to all. Some of us are returning to places with a new and renewed sense of presence and purpose….something that got lost in the dynamics of personalities when first arriving. Many others are reviewing the status of important relationships, does one have to end to make way for something/someone more inline with their current path of growth….can adjustments be made, pains released, views changed in order for the needs and desires of heart and soul  be honor ahead of the logical mundane world.

I have seen and learned so often that when I ignore, deny or even abuse my deep inner connection and knowing, the magic disappears, I loose creativity and life becomes heavy and sometimes unbearable.

A friend once shared this saying with me and I hope she does not mind me sharing it with you…it is powerful!

“Anyone or anything that does not make you come alive….IS TOO SMALL FOR YOU!”  (where you are now!)

When I get lost in the muck and mire of life I try to remember this! As we come up on the equinox on September 21 review the past year in six month sections…..what has happened…what was good, was not, got done, did not, what you want to leave behind and where you want to go…..

“and then look into the sacred chamber behind the heart where the memory of God’s Divine Love resides’… (from Igniting Life)

’till we meet again!

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