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Article first published as Performing “Awakening & Igniting Ecstasy In-Formation.” on Blogcritics.

Granted it has been what seems like a few weeks since writing for you yet here I am again with musings about the second performance of “Awakening and Igniting Ecstasy In-Formation…A New Twist of Money, Power, Sex and Death”,

I returned to Mt Shasta on September 8th to connect with a friend I had last seen in NC two years earlier. James and I created and produced a CD for meditation and balancing of male and female energies playing 12 + singing singing bowls.  We came together in a small private recording studio in Cashiers, NC knowing something special was going to happen….there was very little planning for it, at least on my part at the behest of the “higher ups”. By the time the last track was recorded, the energy presence from so many higher beings was palpable….George, the owner and technician was completely taken out into another state while doing his work and reemerged to present time just as the last notes were being played. He was in awe of his experience!

I had seen James’s name on an email and was shocked to see he was in the Shasta area. At the time I was heading that direction to house sit for a couple of weeks so timing was amazing as usual. Therese, my fellow Medicine Woman Sister and Friend, whom I had also met in NC came through town and what a great reunion we had!

In preparation for the latest performance I refined and tweaked the format and “so called script” a little, enhanced the power point backdrops and engaged musicians, dancer and artist for the evening.  

Doug was my first musician and just when I thought no others would turn up, my friend Jessica mentions her friend Brandy…and all was well again. I found out later they all already knew each other!

Doug Wendt, a classical guitarist who plays the classical composers, such and Bach and Mozart along with lighter classical, jazz and Spanish style pieces.

Brandy “Soulma” Saint Phalle and Rick Kincade came as a duo sharing vocals, guitar and Rick on harmonica, playing what they call Revolutionary music to open hearts and minds with love and respect.

Jennifer Jerabak, a Dancing Freedom facilitator shared a spot of improv dance with me before engaging the audience to dance…nearly everyone present got up! Unfortunately the lighting didn’t allow for a picture of Jennifer’s beautiful face and presence…New photo of Jennifer taken by Nickki Lee Hill.

Ray Dawn (Liz) once again helped me set up, monitored the video and was the improve artist again. Here are examples of her art interpretation of the story “A Trip for Chocolate”….notice the difference between the first and second performance energy.

Therese came back especially to support me for this performance and I so very much appreciate her and the wisdom she shared. She offered to take photos and so she click and clicked away the evening. And there are some very interesting shots! As the evening went on and the vibration within the place increased my little camera, that normally has no problems, captured images and actions in such odd ways. At first I thought it was the focus yet now believe it was far more than that!

Once again the audience seemed to really enjoy the evening, the stories and performers. In many ways it has become a conscious expanding experience of bridging the worlds.

At the end of the evening some audience members gave me names and ideas of other locations to present this style of message, “you need to get this out to more people, it was wonderful!” I am open to anywhere and everywhere to do this, from California and beyond!

I had also offered the evening as a fund raising event for the local Meals on Wheels program and am pleased to be able to take a donation of $60 along with a donated box of vegetables directly to the Mt Shasta office.

In the next week or so I hope to be able to edit and publish video segments to tantalize just a little…of course they cannot capture the true energy present in the moment….you have to do that in person!

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TODAY is all there is NOW

For YESTERDAY is a NOW gone by

And TOMORROW is a NOW yet to come

With the space in between

A Time to Breathe in Life

No More, No Less

Ophelia  2005

This past week, here in Mt Shasta, CA we have gone through the gamut of seasons with the common theme of what I call FREEDOM.

Yet what does freedom mean? Living in the moment for there is nothing else.


This is difficult when the world and life around you seems to be falling apart. When health and money take their place ahead of heart, soul and dream/visions, time and demands become the concrete blocks of stagnation. I have been there often. Even now when I fail to pay attention it is not difficult to fall into these depths, wallowing in oblivion until I finally listen to “the still small voice within” of what to do, feel and BE next.

Slow down and experience timelessness. How is this possible! Frankly, I can’t adequately explain it but when I do go into slow mode that is exactly what happens and so many cobwebs clear away.

Yesterday, along with my photographer friend, Nikki, we spent four to five hours in the last afternoon/evening exploring the Klamath Falls Wildlife Refuge. Within several refuge areas on either side of Highway 97 there are literally thousands and thousands of birds (swans, geese, ducks, quail, hawks, eagles, pelicans, gulls and so many more other bird varieties) gathering, feeding, socializing and soaring in amazing formations of chaos. And there is such freedom within their purpose! This whole scene repeated each day as it has been for hundreds of years because of instinctual memory.

I also see instinctual memories in the snow scenes, the sunsets, the bath and even untimely deaths.

What are these memories? They are the memories each has locked away that keep freedom at a distance and as an illusionary possibility.

Talk is cheap and words empty if not backed up by substance. You surely ask what practical steps I can take to move beyond those confines and see, feel and BE free.

Why should you listen and accept anything I have to say? Good question!

Having the Four Principles of Empowerment revealed to me is how I have been asked to Walk the Talk in order to move along my path. As I said earlier, there are times I stumble, loose my footing and direction until receiving the push to pay attention and follow the steps again.

This is where it is important for you to follow your own guidance and intuition as to what will help you most.


Here I am including the First Principle to Empowerment – TO RELEASE. (These exercises are from my workbook.) Take one issue, situation, relationship, etc. at a time. Apply the questions and answers to it and see what is revealed. Write them down. The process will be like peeling an onion. Deeper layers will be revealed and tears may flow as a result!

In the next posting I will follow this up with the Second Principle to Empowerment – TO CLAIM.

Do not be hard on yourself – there are plenty of others you allow the privilege!

Most of all BE HONEST with YOURSELF, because you are the only one who count here.

What you do for you will also move out to help others…..this is EMPOWERING in itself!

Happy Journeying until next time!

TODAY I Empower Myself to Release!

“whatever serves me no longer and is not in my highest good!”

Today, I release the drama of:……………… …………..…………………………

I am Responsible for this drama!……………………… …………..…………………

If yes, why? …………………………………………………………………………..………

If no, whom does the drama belong to?……………. …………..…………………

I am WILLING to release this drama! …………………………..…………………

Without this drama I expect to feel:……………… …………..…………………

I will now be able to:  …………………………………………………..…………………

(A drama is any person, situation, belief or fear residing within your life field. Think of each drama as an act in your life’s play)

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Full Moon in Libra in the Sign of Aries.  It’s like being in the spin cycle of life’s machine and not sure which speed is coming next. Lots of unravelling, revealing which creates mystical happenings and awareness, a little scary, lots of  revelations and oh so adventureous possibilities to explore.

Hold on to your hats….. this is only the begining for we have arrived in a new time and space with no return to the past acceptable.

 

The World Book Dictionary’s meaning of metamorphosis is “change of form, structure, substance; any complete change in appearance, character, circumstances.” This is what spring is about, bringing new hidden life to the surface to present a complete visual transformation in appearance, character and form.

This is what is happening to all of us internally and externally, with incredible speed, power and significance.  And I can definitely say my life shifts have been ramped up big time! I have been trying to write a new post for the past four to five days and just the action of opening up the blog site sometimes proved impossible.

What changed today to at least get it started? Birthdays begin a new revolution of birth and rebirth and this has just occurred for me as well as, last Wednesday was the last morning of getting up at 4am to participate in the  latest 11 day sadhana (morning call to meditation and chant) at a center in Mt Shasta.  The particular session mantra was focused on releasing blocks. Blocks from what appeared to be from eons of time past to the stuff brought forth that very night. There was nothing subtle about it either, no mistaking what was being addressed and how proactive actions really were crucial and not to be delayed. 

Another thing that has changed is how I am to redefine myself, my life purpose, work and most of all my DESIRES. Become more specific and refine the central theme. For anyone reading my bios, website or most especially knowing me, realize I have done, been, seen and created from very diverse directions and I’m often asked “what do you really do and how do you use it!” Confusing to say the least, to all except me! Everything I have ever done, learned, etc., I now know how to put it all into play when working with clients, writing, creating presentations and shows or finding disruptive forces in grids. BUT NOW IT NEEDS TO BE REFINED TO A CENTRAL CORE OF PURE INTEREST and this is ultimately UNDERSTANDING SOUL EVOLUTION STORIES and WHO WE ARE TODAY!  How this is done is the Intuitive Journey of Discovery!

Many of you reading this piece will agree and say “that’s happening to me and I didn’t have to get up at 4am and chant!”  For me, the discipline, focus, attention, intent and conscious awareness provided very clear signposts and thread patterns to follow, rather than being blind and unconscious to the reasons, impact and appropriate responses required to move or dissolve the blocks.  Some friends were put in their sick beds to have time to cleanse, reflect and revive to their new selves; or a relationship came to place of transition for reasons viewed quite differently by each person involved; huge and fast rearrangements of living circumstances, work, power and information are all part of the individual and universal metamorphosis taking place.

You cannot fight it……it is a natural flow of life force……..

Embrace it……..and The Birth it is facilitating in your life!

 

Creating Soul Stories     Why Are They Important?

In the last post there was as example of how a formless light vibration snowball may create a Soul for incarnation by traveling through a great Life Memory Library. This is a powerful tool I use for helping people understand why and how  they experience life as they do.

The next story is of birth and family ties, their impact and how they really extend back in time and beyond this space. Understanding such genetic ties, their cellular and psychic memory and current connection to life and health issues are significant within my own children and family even as I write this. The deep, old and wounded past is pleading for acknowledgement, release and healing.

                     Sample Chart Flow

The Dynamic Web of Family Ties

 Another experience that presented itself at Spa Atlantis was with a young mother-to-be and her family. On the day I met her, she told me her due date was NOW, TODAY! I will call this young woman, Susan.

 

I had just finished working with another client and came out to the reception area. Standing there, beside Susan was her aunt, a friend, a massage therapist and the receptionist for the spa. I was introduced to Susan and of course my question to her was “when are you due?”

She replied “now but the baby has not dropped into place for some reason and the doctor’s are concerned. I had a massage with the hope of moving the baby into place.”

 

Observing a great pressure on her spine because of the baby’s weight and position I asked if I could do a little energy work to perhaps shift it so she would not be so uncomfortable.  Susan gladly agreed.

 

Standing right there in the reception area, with all everyone observing, I “did my energy magic” as I call it. Within a couple of minutes she experienced a shift, her baby demagnetized from the spine allowing for Susan to loosen and straighten herself, her skin, hair and eyes visibly lightened and the baby slowly lowered into place.

 

Everyone was amazed! They watched my every move, the breathing technique I showed Susan, the fact that I really didn’t even touch her and also all this was done within five or six minutes. I smiled and then bid farewell, leaving Susan now looking like a radiant and comfortable mother-to-be.

 

The next day I had planned to visit a friend at his office in Hollywood, FL. David was a Doctor of Oriental Medicine and we were going to share techniques and information on each other’s work.  He had given me directions and said that I should to park in the Burger King Lot across the street.

 

At the duly appointed time I arrived and parked my car. First off I made a stop in the Burger King to wash my hands and get the feel that it was alright to leave my car for a couple of hours.

 

I was just about to leave the store when a voice behind me said “hello, what are you doing here?” It was Susan’s aunt from the previous day. To say the least I was surprised.

 

“I’m visiting a friend across the street!”

“Oh he is at the birthing center!  ” she asked and then proceeds to introduce Susan’s mother and other family members.

 

“I had no idea David’s office was connected to the birthing center!” I replied.

 

We crossed the street together and entered the building. David was waiting for me. Susan’s aunt wanted me to meet the grandparents and children before I met with David.

 

This is when I “tuned into” some rather disturbing emotions and threads that were playing out in the family. The Grandmothers were remembering their own child birth experiences, there was jealousy coming from a sister and Susan’s supposed “best friend.

 

I went to see David and spent about two hours together in his office.  Eventually, the need for food took over and we decided to go and find something to eat.

 

The scene in the rest of the building had changed. There was a much stronger stress level evident. Walking passed a room with the door open I realized that it was a birthing room and in use. A large woman in a wheelchair was in the room and as I walked past felt a very uncomfortable chill.

 

I asked David who she was. “She is the midwife.”

To say the least I was shocked. Shocked at the chilling energy messages I was picking up from the room and woman.

 

Upon leaving the building we were greeted with the sight of Susan being walked in the parking lot, her husband on one side and her best friend on the other. Susan was not the radiant person I left the day before. She was in pain, tired, drained and actually looking wretched. My heart went out to her.

 

David and I moved to our cars and out of ear shot of everyone. I shared my observations and feelings with him and although he had not understood the scenarios, as soon as I pointed them out he agreed completely.

 

  These were my observations.                                                   

  1. The grandparents of the two families were not comfortable or did not particularly really like each other.                                                                                                                                                            Sample Family Issues Chart
  2. The midwife present was not only unhealthy physically; she also had a strong jealous energy around her and “wanted” the mothers to experience difficult births, as her own life was difficult. Susan’s sister also exhibited jealousy.
  3. Outside, Susan’s best friend had a strong interest in her husband and perhaps in the past they had had a relationship. Once again jealousy was apparent.
  4. All these webs of relationship energies were being picked up by the baby, and baby was saying “I don’t want to come into this mess there is too much pain and deceit around!” Thus labored had virtually stopped.

 

For those readers who are questioning the above observations, it was the energy, auric fields and body language of everyone involved I was reading and sensing. This has taken me many years of observation to understand and now hopefully I can assist or facilitate to dissolve and complete particular energy patterns.

 

As David and I continued to stand by our cars I quietly said a blessing and connected into Divine Source and held the space while these dark threads moved to become light.  In situations like these, I know I have been guided or directed to “turn up, be present and hold light” by a higher divine power which could also include the “spirit/s” of family members wishing to help resolve situations that seem to repeat themselves over and over again. These powerful times are showing us many very different ways of handling and looking at life.

 

One of the most crucial factors in transmuting dark or negative energies, behaviors, spirits and such is to acknowledge and validate that they are real and have had a purpose up until that moment. Validation is the key to dissolving the power or fear, and in validating the power or fear, there is then a choice to make of what to do next, thus moving beyond its perceived original purpose.

Like a child demanding attention. Until the child is acknowledged and asked what they want, their demands will continue to get louder and louder.

Several days later I spoke to David for an update on when Susan went into labor and had her baby. He said “the situation started to change about an hour after I left and she had her baby later than night. He said the stress amongst everyone definitely changed and ‘thank you for what you did!”

As with the many varied experiences I have had over the years, each one teaches me something special and important not only about others but also myself and then becomes another block in the new life puzzle I am gradually learning more about.  

 

 

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