Archive for May, 2010

Through Masks and Veils

Check out these wonderful photographers whose work takes you through the veils in very different ways. They are wonderful!

“Through the Veils Part Way”    Catalina Martin-Chico  lens.blogs.nytimes.com/2010/01/28/showcase-118/

Photographer and friend       Nickki Lee Hill     www.flickr.com/photos/nickkieyes


Have you noticed of late how so many of what can be called masks and veils are cracking, completely shattering, becoming transparent or are ripped away entirely to reveal purer forms of potential. This is happening globally as well as national, locally and ultimately, personally.

Corruption and bad environmental ethic are revealed in massive oil spills and destruction; government changes, banking frauds, you name it…..all  ripped away entirely to reveal purer forms of potential life creation for highest good of ALL.

This is all old, old games playing out and what is coming to an end. The End of the Atlantian Agenda and all the mistruths programmed into us for way too long. All this is changing as individual’s CLAIM their personal power back.

We put on masks at a very earlier age to protect our fragile selves from pain, hurt and misrepresentation or so we think. However, as wisdom is gained I see how this very protection is indeed the cause of the need for greater protection. In recent conversations with varying friends I asked why the need for so many masks and the resounding comments were “in order to separate the roles, personae and necessary defenses to successfully navigate the material and commercial world. My spiritual world and beliefs are separate and important. ”

Personally this has been happening with increasing frequency and intensity especially over the past two weeks, due in part and in direct relation to the  particular chant/meditation our small group has been doing at sadhana or morning call at 5am each morning. The hand mudra used in the Hariji chant is of the lotus resting at the heart and is of great significance. The joining of thumbs is “who I AM”; joining of the little fingers is “who I Shall BE”; the three fingers of each hand represent “the past, present, future – wholeness in all experiences of God Soul”. It is breaking the masks of the past to strengthen the present NOW in order to enliven the new vibration/expression of Self.”

What a ride it is without something to hide behind. Frequent tearful releases arising without warning, without discrimination of location and who may be present, often deep knowings revealed, other times you have no idea why that just happened! Yet all results are massive (at least in my little world) as so much more clarity comes through, of self, others, situations, potentials, habits, whatever you are willing to see at the time. And of course all is in line with the grander picture.

Of course I understand! I have and at times do wear different masks, all the while knowing that this is exactly why I have created and perpetuated the distance and separations within my life. One way to dissolve masks and create more transparency is through the Power of Vulnerability.

“Oh no! Vulnerability! That is a weakness!”

Far from it! When understood, trusted and tested, being consciously vulnerable offers great rewards for growth, truth, understanding, strength and respect.

Try taking one area in your life, for instance the piece chosen in response to the question “Today I RELEASE from ME whatever is not in my highest good”. “See previous blog piece: “Empowering Myself to Claim”

How much control can you let go of? How much can you open to the unknown? How much can you trust yourself and your feelings in relation to the person or situation? How much MAGIC are you ABLE to ACCEPT no matter what the outcome?


Today is marked with Full Moon in Sagittarius plus Jupiter / Uranus are conjunct in Aries……WOW to the planet. And on Sunday Saturn goes direct again!

You don’t believe all this stuff! Doesn’t matter, they still effect everyone by the very nature within universal galactic space/time/consciousness matrix.

How it effects and what is done by you in your life – NOW THAT YOU DO HAVE CONTROL OF BECAUSE OF FREE-WILL!

Here’s a very brief and basic explanation of the planetary stuff –

Full Moon – wholeness within the monthly cycle (new to full moon cycle from vision/dream to manifestation; full moon to no moon cycle – how actions. Decisions and consciousness affect the manifestation.)

Both planets –Sagittarius and Aries are fire signs and make things happen – the how is up to us.

Jupiter is associated with expansion of ideas

Uranus is break out of the box, is radical, enough is enough!

Saturn is constrain, logical – the direct opposite to Uranus

For more detailed information check with your favorite astrology person or website


Huge change is a foot and as the masks and veils are pulled away there will be incredible potential with heightened awareness and consciousness to change and create A NEW REALITY of LIFE for the ENTIRE PLANET.

This is no longer a pipe dream. No longer someone else’s job! Little old me has no effect! WRONG!

Absolutely, what I do, say, think, feel, create does have and effect, virtually immediately sometimes.

As I change, my world changes, the world changes……Just saying and the thinking for your self beyond the matrix of media will help shift the mass.

Yesterday I had a major revelation in regards to myself and the collective consciousness of Earth and what the “experts” say is being created through thought forms/internet/grids of all description. The revelation ignited my fire as upset, anger, loss, all sorts of stuff yet this also was the revealing imputes I needed to begin to work with my higher consciousness and alchemy with earth’s grand soul to transmute and neutralize potentials not in the highest good of earth and her populations.

It is not for me to dictate how I would like it to look or demand certain outcomes – that would be playing the same game. It is to be left in the hands of Earth’s Divine Soul God Creator Source…..the ultimate decision maker!

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Mother’s Day           In honor of my mother and all facets of creation therein.

Resolving issues, contracts, obligations, misunderstandings, expectations and disconnections around our own mothers, ourselves as mothers, the mother essence within each man, as well as the greater yin/feminine essence within the universal ether is so prevalent in my life as well as so many others I know over these past few months.

I am working to transmute and transcend some of the threads of “stuff” held with and by my mother and her lineage going back many generations. To find the time/space of the original pure feminine divinity essence and bring it forward through the quagmire of lost feminine understanding, wisdom, desire, purpose, love and compassion as a result of long term  male/patriarchal dominance.

This is not male bashing in any way for men have suffered perhaps a greater injustice through the times past. While it took to the 1800s or thereabouts for women’s voices and the suffragette movement to ignite, it has taken until the 21st century for men to truly have permission, on a mass scale, to claim, honor and work with the feminine essence, devoid of labeling and general image constructs.

Those who have chosen to experience the homosexual and lesbian roles throughout history and in this lifetime have shown everything from extreme behaviors tipping opposite scales to living in perfect balance of integrated male/female roles. This has been expressed as incredible creativity, business success in varying degrees, and all disciplines of expression, both good and challenging.

Mothering cannot happen in a singular unit. It is a co-operative union of two or more. Who, where, why and what joins determines the seed essence dynamics, and this union is not just physical. The birth of ideas, creativity and the merging with nature, animals and all life is a mothering union.

Yet it is the life play that determines characters, personalities, emotional and mental moods within the matrix. Within each mothering union there are dozens, hundreds or perhaps thousands of intricate scenarios from the earliest moment of life to the last breathe of that same life.

In the past weeks several of these have surfaced for me to acknowledge and move beyond. I offer these examples as a thumbnail sketch. They may seem familiar to many of you.

My mother was an incredible artist until the day she received some news that rocked her world and she never picked up a paint brush or charcoal again. As far as I am concerned, this was a tragedy far worse than the news she received, because it “jaded” her spirit and had an incredible effect on how I perceived my own creative evolution and expression. I was around 12 or 13 years old at the time.

Prior to this event, many an hour I sat as her model, most usually dressed as Les Sylphides, Odette in Swan Lake or similar. The angelic dancer image! She had trained at the best art school in Sydney and later under the tutorship of some very well known artists of the time. She enjoyed oils far more than water colors but it was her charcoals that breathed life onto the paper.

The few portraits she did of men did not have the same power as her women and children. I later realized this was linked to her personal pain and loss of the father presence and men in general from her very beginning.

One of her most powerful portraits was of Brigit. A beautiful, young Irish woman who just happened to be a prostitute in Kings Cross, Sydney in the mid sixties. Mother captured her young, sensual, innocent essence and all who looked at the portrait were mesmerized. This was the case with virtually all her work, yet she often did not see it or perhaps did not want to see it.

I have been gifted by my mother with intense sensitivity of feelings. Growing up I was always told this was a fault to be overcome; yet, now it is my greatest indicator of truth. Mother honored this sensitivity in her art yet seldom in her personal being and life.

Even though special commissions were requested there was always a lack of value of herself and this thread was passed onto her children. As I work on this personal thread I hope to dissolve it for my mother, sister and our lineage back to where original purity can be found, this is my goal!

There is also another side that goes along with the lack of value. I am so very much like my father. We are Aries, quick thinkers, risk takers, visionaries, and impulsive, etc. all in varying degrees. So often her logical Gemini twin would take over as our dreams/ visions/ ideas were birthing in varying stages, concepts often ahead of time, beyond acceptable logic, outside financial reality, etc. Mother’s silence or biting comments would drown the creative spirit so fast. For me this had devastating effects at times. My father’s tenacity has kept him going and creating even now at 88 years old. Many times mother was right, at least to a point, yet once soaked, the spark is never quite as bright or just goes out completely. Fear has created all responses.

To keep creative sparks ignited even now, I need to choose wisely and intuitively, listen to my heart and soul as to my paths, lessons, gifts of mastery, experience and life, while navigating with, through and alongside the varying friends, relationships, commitments, fields of thought and personalities, all simultaneously offering visions, projections and reflections of the Sacred Mother within wishing to constantly Birth New Life.

What has this remembrance brought up for you and the Sacred Mothers in your life? Honor then, not just today, every day for all to be constantly New!

Seasons at Castle Lake

Mt Shasta, California

Summer photo – August 2009                                                                                                      Winter photos taken May  5 2010  in the middle of the lake

View from  marked location on opposite photo

According to UC Davis researchers drilling for water samples,

as of 5/5/2010ice thickness is greater than 9ft.

How long will it take to melt!

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