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magnificence 2We all have those little or not so little traits that we would rather hide from others and/or avoid completely. That is, of course, until they come up and face you square in the eyes and have to be dealt with!

Procrastination and avoidance are what I have to admit to in this instance! Yet out of it has come some surprising revelations!

At the beginning of this year I decided it was time to change the name on my passport to match the name on my license, from one married name to other.

Before I go any further a side note: The male populations of most countries have no idea how lucky they are with the fact they don’t have to change their identity whenever they marry. Women on the other hand, from the dictates of many years past, are required to change their name to that of the husband, a beginning that was close to indicating ownership of someone or something. Thankfully now in many countries women have the choice to change their name or not.

Prior to 2001 having two names, traveling with all the right documents showing you are one and the same person was validated by the system when entering one or both names. You, your information and history were on the computer screen to be easily seen.

About five years ago the smoothness went to sticky to now it is stuck in mountains of super glued red tape, and even insiders have agreed with image!  This is where procrastination finally caught up with me!

In January with all the correct original documents backing up my life with these two names I had an interview in Phoenix, AZ. They took copies in the interview and fingerprints were done. Then the waiting game began. About 8 to 9 months till completion I was told.

Two weeks ago I receive a letter requesting all documentation to prove my names and reason for the change. Is it possible that the first set of documents I presented to the authorities are still sitting in a file box in Phoenix!

Next the letter stated the two sets of fingerprints taken that day were unacceptable and I now have to provide proof of where I have lived for the past 10 years.

Wow……how on earth am I going to achieve this! This took more than a couple of days to sink in and find the solution.

Of course for a great deal of people this would not be a problem. They have either lived in the same home or town for many, many years. For others a couple of moves are easy to track and paperwork abounds. From here the groups with increasing numbers of moves decrease in number.

In the past 13 years I have been a very fluid and free spirit. (Although that was not the case during my 25 years of marriages.) Life has been and still is a Spiritual Journey of Discovering Who I am, Why I am Here and What I Am to Give Back and be of Service to Life.

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1998 Nissan Sentra with 300,000 miles My Little Girl!

The search for answers begins with pencil and paper……I can name the locations, towns, city and states. Specific addresses were a challenge. I could picture the house, apartment or land but could not remember the physical addresses.

I had chosen to stop using credit cards in 2003 as part of the journey to learn and understand how money, abundance and prosperity flows or doesn’t in response to one’s need and wants. It was around that time that I realized how corrupt and unreal the money system really was. Thus for these reasons a credit report was of no use because I had no history to track.

Next the bank I had been using for 15 years. Their computer systems don’t keep track of former addresses. Old ones are deleted when updates are changed (or at least this is what I was told.) Then I tried the same thing with the car insurance company and the deal was the same. I thought about tax records but whatever I have are in a box in someone’s attic a long way from here.

STUCK! The obvious places were dead ends. I had some proof of addresses but holes remained!

On the surface my nomadic life was odd, random and uneasy for some people. For others there was the wish to be and do something similar. To find the answers I needed I had to look deeper.

Underneath I am unchanging and predictable: the same bank and insurance company for 15 years; the same cell phone number for 11 years; the same email address for 11 years; driven the same car for 16 years and she has just turned over 300,000 miles!

And there lay the answer! Since driving her off the lot in Sedalia, MO in 1998 with 500 + miles on the odometer, every time tires were purchased or service was done I would slip the finally paperwork into the glove box. I even have the original sales paperwork.

Sitting in the sun I laid out all the paperwork, put it in date and location order and there was the time line and mapping of life for 16 years. Now not only do I have the address proof needed but also confirmation of the same phone number, same vehicle, running tab of the mileage, directions traveled and locations visited and all the care given to Little Girl along the way.

Next week all this will be put to use to validate the requests of the letter mentioned.

What it has further given me is the time to review of the many places I have been, the wonderful people I have met, experiences share and lessons learned.

Where have you lived in the past 10 years? Is there a time line and map to show in black and white! Who have you met, what have you done, how have you grown…….where are you going from here?

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If you enlarge these….look for the dolphin emerging from the cloud wing, then morphing into possibly an eagle head and then the last one shows the smaller wing attached to a double eagle/bird image. Also notice the image of cloud and mountain has an “unreal dimension shift look!       see Tuesday below.

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So close to home, no it was our home and town…..that’s when we pay attention!

And that is also when true compassionate community comes together to set examples for change.

Like many others standing on the fringe, I offer the community and people of Weed prayers, blessings and support as I am able and capable of in the days, weeks and months to come. What that will look like I leave to the Great Divine Guide to show me the needs in time, space and way, physically, emotionally, mentally or spiritually.  The loss of everything can open the wells of Spirit to provide all new and the floods of tears break down the dams of resistance to cleanse the paths ahead.

This region has been covered with smoke for a good portion of the summer. Smoke coming from fires, big fires from Happy Camp, CA to Grant Pass, OR but they are not here and so not so personal unless you have a personal connection to the land and people there.

It has been four days since life changed for the residents of the Northern California towns of Weed and Mount Shasta. Both these communities with populations of about 3,000 year round have large spikes in the spring and summer months with visitors from all over the world.

The long hot and insanely dry summer and similar happenings last year have left the land, rivers, lakes and ponds dry to parched of water……a tinder box holding its breath.

The cause is still a big question – arson, accident, act of nature……..we may know or may never know only speculate yet the stories will be told.

The photos I share here tell a story of my observations and messages over 3 days. As an Alchemist, Meta-physician and  Healing Practitioner I look at most all situations from varying views and see possibilities and opportunities in the darkest places. As many are saying too….A renewal and rebirth for Weed is here. What it will look like is up to each one making different choices.

The first photos were taken as I walked to the Mount Shasta Farmer’s Market on Monday, totally unaware of the fire at that time. The title of each photo indicates the day and time taken. These first ones were taken in less than a minute…….look closely into the white mass of the wing image.

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These photos were taken on Tuesday at Shastice Park. Earlier in the day I had the strong guidance to take my 12ft x 15ft Walking for World Peace Labyrinth up there and do Ceremony, thus I followed this message.

With my drum and Nia, my 10lbs Lemurian Record-keeper crystal I began. With prayers and song while walking the paths into the center to stand on OM. There the prayers expanded through me to include the dissolving, neutralizing and purifying of all the history held within the land and heritage of the people – of earth-bound spirits, abuse, slavery, government programs and manipulations of the 70s, greed, corruption, loss, both now and other times and on and on.

The drum beats became stronger, louder and faster as I turned and turned and turned with tears and sobs flowing more and more…….all coming to an abrupt stop as the top of the drum mallet flew off and landed feet away. Silence, stillness and rest as I melted to the ground in gratitude.

As I sat and rested these clouds formed over the mountain, as through they were coming out of the mountain. Because of the grey color and the release intuitively felt that indeed a massive release and cleansing had begun.

The last time I did a ceremony similar to this one was at 11,000ft in the Rockies outside of Denver on September 17, 2001 – six days after 9/11. I was doing it along with my dear soul sister Toby Evans who was holding ceremony on her land and labyrinth in Sibley, MO at exactly the same time.

Back in 2001 the days of Sept 16 and 17 were called, as per the Mayan prophesy ” The Days of Truth” and ceremonies were held all over the world.

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And these photos were taken Wednesday afternoon and I really can’t describe them, just use your imagination and wonder of whether ET’s came home! View from Weed truck stop.

The Future – just pondering out loud!

Of course at the moment few can see or feel anything beyond the moment and that is as it should be for those so close.

For others on the edges and with talents, know-how, position and desire, new ideas and support can be life changing for this/these communities. It is not and cannot be “as we have always done it before” nor should it be. New visions for renewing the image of Weed and to bring new opportunities in. There is a wealth of talent and innovation already there….now to see a new place.

I heard there have been discussions about the ownership and access to the Springs of Weed which is under control of the Lumber Mill. Perhaps a new opening can come and be acceptable to all to free the  waters of life force in a beneficial way.

And to the two denominations losing their buildings…….what an amazing opportunity there is for Unity of Spirit rather than Separation of Doctrine. With experience “serving” congregations in the South and Mid-West for nine years I have seen the Church from the inside out. Without the confines of walls and vestments, while the weather permits,  worship in the breadth of air and land together, Catholic and Presbyterian. Bring together the separation started by King Henry 8th, annexing to become the Church of England and then Presbyterians of Scotland breaking from there.

One large rebuilding fund (instead of two) for Unity of Spirit and Cooperation through tragedy. We are all indeed One in and with Life and Soul and our Breath makes us Whole.

And there is so much more coming from amazing people everywhere…………….

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Watching the movie Julie & Julia the other night reactivated the desire for the Muse to write again. Following the unfolding of Julie Powell’s journey through Julia Child’s “Mastering the Art of French Cooking” bought many moments of laughter, remembering Paris and the desire to eat wonderful French cuisine.

Although deemed a chick flick my friend thoroughly enjoyed the characters, antics, amazing food and of course Paris once again.

The break in writing has been long – too long – last entry way back in June while I was in Taos, NM.

After an absence of nine months from Mount Shasta I returned the second week of July to the mountain and waters I love and that feel more like home with each return, this one especially. On my way back from Taos I attended the 10 day Solstice Retreat of yoga, meditation and teaching at the Yogi Bhajan Puri outside of Espanola, NM. Powerful times with wonderful people and many experiences beyond words.earthship in Taos

From there I drove to Santa Rosa for a few days rest and then onto Santa Cruz for the 4 day West Coast Dowsing Conference where I presented on “Our Lives as Living Matrices” and my 12 x 15 foot Walking for World Peace Labyrinth, many experiencing its powerful healing and illuminating energies while walking it paths.

It was from here I headed north to the mountain. A day earlier my mother passed, albeit it occurred 12,000 miles away in Australia. My son was with her and in the last phone call he held the phone up and I talked to her and remembered for 20 minutes or so. Suddenly the connection dropped out. Jerame called back a few minutes later

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flowers in drought at 10,000 ft

and said “she has passed”. I am so grateful for those moments we had. Ours had been a mother/daughter relationship often of challenge and I had not been to Australia for twelve years, each attempt stopped for lack of funds or issues going on.

The moments afterwards were amazing. I literally knew she was free, liberated and happy as never before. I saw “her essence” and still do as never before also and I still do feel and know she is close to me. It has been the most unexpected experience and I am grateful.

I have also found my life and Being has changed and I am more content, joyful and blessed that ever before it seems. I am experiencing something she desired yet never was able to have or attain and I believe her heart is rejoicing from such healing.

south gate meadow, mt shastaThis time in Mount Shasta has been special for many reasons. Beautiful hikes to South Gate (aka Squaw Meadow); Panther Meadow, Castle Lake, camping on the mountain, singing, cooking new recipes, sharing with lots of laughter accompanied by a dear friend. Friendship, laughter, challenge, love, respect – all these make a powerful mixture.

Also new and former clients have surfaced requesting my guidance and assistance. Several very powerful sessions with them have facilitated awakenings, healing and new life perspectives for their consideration. This work is where I take Life Coaching to the realm of Life Alchemy.

The Muse’s quiet appearance came with a push to create an E-Book (as it is faster than regular publishing) of my Art, Stories and Poetry with the dedication to my grand children most specifically. “Something for them to know more about you, as Mehmah, when they are older”. With such a purpose it is more likely to get completed! At least so far there are 15 + pages committed.

music on the mountainUpon rising each day I ask

“And how does it get better than this!”

And remember

“Anyone or anything that does not make you come alive is TOO SMALL for YOU!

Origin  of quotes unknown

 Until……..

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Lighten is Everything in Photography!

Most of the people in my life these days, in fact for the past years are younger than I am to varying degrees, besides my children and grandchildren.

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This ranges from young teenagers to early adults in the blossoming of their lives. So often our meeting provides them a safe place to share special moments or fears and struggles in their lives. Sometimes offering a story of my own or an antidote, new perspective to work with or just an ear to listen.

Mostly though the age ranges are forties and fifties, years for me that were powerful, successful and challenging for many untold reasons. I look at each of them with a mixture of emotions; envy that I am not there any more, joy of the magic that can evolve through troubles laced with early mature wisdom, of what success did and does look like, how responsibility and freedom change and how the topic or view of age moves on.

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Years ago, 65 was old, ancient, one foot in the grave! Now it can be the 45 of the past or in some cases 35!

That is on the outside. On the inside it is something different and just as hard to reconcile. Whether healthy or not we have to come to terms ourselves. Gratefully I am healthy and have been most of my life at least since 20 years old. Prior to 15 or so I did suffer several quite serious illness yet always seemed to raise above them.

why not live a little!

This year I am 65 and can hardly believe it at least in how I feel, what my desires are and what I want to continue to do, be and see. On the outside the story is different and I am hard on myself for what I see or what I perceive is there or not every day. It also has come up with a few others I know of this age. No matter how much care you take, what you do, think and say, there are telltale signs that creep into view and one morning a huge sigh is let out in realization of the past gone by. Oh Well it is here!

Even those who think they know you, who know some of your stories, who see how you live and what you do these days cannot know all of what came before and there is “so much more that you were in the years they are in now!”

Taos, where I am at the moment  has been quite magical it what has been manifested, revealed, shared, gifted, given and received. Yesterday I participated in a powerful Inipi, a Lakota sweat lodge ceremony. It had been a year or so since my last one in Ojai, CA. The lodge took me deep into gratitude for all that has been, is and will be.

where I am today!

And this photo shoot experience has been part of the gratitude. And 0ddly enough in the making for four years or so, commissioned by someone on the East Coast whom I have never met. It came about from them seeing my television program back in 2005. After many attempts over the past four years to do a shoot when I was on the East Coast, it never happened. Then a month or so ago the request was sent to find someone in Taos to do the shoot instead.

I found Heather at Sparrow Photography, Taos. The client had very special requests for clothing and style for the main shoot yet then allowed for more relaxed views toward the end. These are just 5 of 197 shots. Heather was wonderful to work with and she knew up front of my apprehensions and vulnerabilities of what would be revealed. I am grateful for her sensitivity and considerations.

No I don’t look like this every day though in another life episode I use to most of the time. I am so grateful for these points of remembering now laced with much more mature wisdom and hints of vulnerability and humility.

No I am not dead yet, still lots of life in these bones, laughter to give out and love to experience.

 

 

 

star bursts smallMay 14th is the Wesak Full Moon and the of celebration of the birth and enlightenment of Buddha.

I would like to share my latest meditation video with you.  It is just 30 minutes long and takes you on a journey to the stars and back (fortunately).  It is not a usual journey and you might be surprised who you meet along the way!

Even good for those “non mediators who don’t believe in all that crap!” 

If possible listen with headphones…….Please NOT IN YOUR MOVING CAR.…….parked and with car turned off is okay.

In this day and age of tiny convenient devises people forget they even have headphones on or are listening while in compromising situations….that is driving, working with machinery, fire, delicate objects. The senses and observation skills are numb or turned off and this can be scary for everyone around them.

Take the time to DE-STRESS – it could save you LIFE!

Production and Music by Matt Peters and Jerame Gray

 

 

 

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From sacred OM through geometries of life to birthing butterfly…our journeys of life

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Look deep within and high above……lighting even the darkness recesses of life….YOU!

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Made up of the four Cardinal Signs of Astrology the power of today’s alignment marks yet another click in the cog on the grand wheel of life for humanity.  Aries…..Cancer…..Libra……Capricorn. What does it really mean…….choose who you read and listen to and then what resonates within you. If you only get stillness and nothing, PERFECT, BE THERE AND NO WHERE ELSE!

Unlock the Heart …….oh such a message for all. What will you find within YOUR HEART today?

I have searched yet cannot see even a glimpse of the innocent one who came into this world

Oh once again to be a vulnerable vessel so filled with space no degree of love and blessings can be turned away

Spaces so filled with high light and life that joy abounds as overflowing as waters and streams burst forth from their banks with life force blessed….

Flowing beyond confined banks of pre measured sources showing only lack.

You are the full bounty of God’s Divine Breathe

You are the full bounty of loves ecstatic rising from the source of true beginning

You are beauty soft and gentle, Soul touches with breathe and whispers…

Transcend the pain to radiance pure

The touch you long for, it is there!

It is you waiting in the shadows

You have been waiting in the shadows..

Remember the shine and smile of the first meetings when light and light joined force as One

You are the One of pure force and so are all Ones you encountered

Light force pure and blessed within,

Fear not rejection unseen as such only proves a miss of truth,

Words not spoken for fear to know or believe in the loss or change

Cry no more your tears are naught to serve no one, lest only to fall and water Rose and Earth

As you see the lover’s face and smile, smile to be at peace

The times of past are no more as lovers lost and death to end

No more! No more! As light sparkles forth from within You sing the gypsy songs and minstrel bards

            Breath of Life, Breath of Life

            Expand and Sore!

Sat Nam and Blessings of Infinite New Vibrations on every inch of Earth, within every Human Soul present, past and future.

 

 

to honor my mother's talentBefore I go any further have to say I am following the synchronicities unfolding today. And to honor my parents. Jerame music      Kate  music  and Flora are visiting them in Australia and sent these photos back. Remembering and honoring mother’s talent as an artist…..me at 15 years or so. Mother is 88 and not as active as once was yet played peek a boo with little Flora.

My father today who will be 92 years young on April 1st.  He still works everyday, writing scripts and ad   campaigns for clients and to promote his television commercial production company, Gold Coast TV. Dad

First this message, then some other ideas, an interview and message, remembering to move forward.…..the paths so interesting….and for you today!

 

Re-Evolution of Success                                           1 3 3 3 5 1 1

A whole Revolution is the completion of what we think of as a circular cycle where the beginning meets the end to become the beginning again. Thus the discovery of the Wheel!

A Revolution is also an uprising of people against something or policies they now believe are unacceptable and/or out of date with the newer view or desires of life. Sadly, the beginning of far too many wars and death and pain of those desiring to change life.

Evolution is taking the perhaps not so circular path to become something else, most hopefully better yet not always. The Evolution of Species.

This morning just after the waking moment “Revolution of Success” came to me along with it the claim “Re-Evolution of Success”.  I also noticed the use of the word “OF” and not “FOR”.

“Of Success” is implying it is already here/there/present, has been in the past and it is to regain the “state of success.” Using “For Success” says that it (success) perhaps keeps staying in the theoretical state of Success and never quite feeling it has been achieved.

This, in the message, was followed by the numerological breakdown of the word Success  -  1 333511 (each letter has a specific value and quality) Nothing new, go back to Pythagoras, the Egyptians, the Mayans, virtually all ancient wisdom cultures knew and used numerology.

Of course this only applies to the English word for Success yet it says a huge amount if accepted as a pure meaning by anyone.

S  =  1 = Self/Individual

U+C+C  =  3 = Communication/Expression/Creativity NOW that by 3 = that is POWERFUL!

E  = 5 = Change/Freedom/Movement/Center

S+S  =  11 = A more powerful Self plus 11 also represents the bringing together of the physical and spiritual worlds as one connected unit like a doorway. Think of a beam of light from heaven to deep in the earth running straight through YOU!

NOW it we look at Success through these eyes:

As I/YOU/WE Communicate and Express who we are/desires/loves/ fears/etc. from heart and truth and Create with Vitality being free to Change and Move off Center to refind and refine ONESELF and our Re-Creation then in the moment heaven and earth join and light US up thus revealing Success no matter what it look like…..a small step, an energizing thought, a risk, a big step, a breakdown just to get out of the way to SEE!

Are you ready to start the RE-EVOLUTION OF YOUR SUCCESS!

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